Amazing Things Will Happen

When we first moved to Las Vegas, Ivan bought me stationary set, one of my favorite gifts! The cards had beautifully flowered and decorative quotes and the front of the box said "Amazing Things Will Happen." Actually, the day he brought it home was in our first vlog: Vlog #1

I thought it was beautiful and I waited about a week to open it and use one of the cards!
I opened it and I found cards with quotes like "Be yourself, Everyone else is taken," and "All you need is love," which are fantastic quotes. However, there was not a single card in my stationary kit that said what was displayed on the front of the box: "Amazing things will happen."
And all I wanted one of those beautiful cards, with that beautiful phrase I loved so much. False advertising much? So, I displayed the box in the guest room and forgot about it for months.

The February rolled around and Ivan was working on the cruise ship, we were doing long distance and the only company I kept at home was that of my sweet Hamster, Luna.

Yes, I am an adult with a hamster for a pet, but it was easy and fun and I'm kind of a kid at heart anyways so it worked.

A few nights before I was going to "get Ivan back" and pick him up from the airport, I stopped at home for about an hour in between work shifts and needed to take a nap, but took Luna out to play and she was very sleepy- like too sleepy, but I thought she was just hibernating. So I put a blanket down and let her sleep on my chest while I took a 20 minute nap. No I did not kill my hamster. She was adorable, but just very, very sleepy.

I'm not quite sure why, but later that night when I came home for the night, Luna had died. And I was alone, and I had to those sad things you have to do when a pet dies, like cry, and put her in a box and bury her, or try to pretend she's not dead yet, and try not to tell anyone, because no one is going to take sympathy on a 26 year-old woman whose pet hamster just died.

I knew I needed a box. And I knew which once to get- the box of stationary I had that said 

Amazing Things Will Happen

Even though this was not an amazing thing, but it happened and I needed to fix it.

I cried on the phone to my mom while I did the things I needed to do, and then cried a little more.

But a lot of worse things have happened and a lot of worse things will happen.

And all those things make you stronger, right?

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It's an ironic story and an ironic way to realize how amazing my life has been.

I've got see amazing places all over the world.

I've got to do amazing things.

And my life is full of amazing people.

People and Relationships is what it's all about.

All the things I have gotten to do and see would mean nothing if I didn't have people in my life that I love and that love me.

Right now, all my travel photos are digital, but I have always wanted to have a big wall full of beautiful photos of the places we've been. 

But more than that, I want a big house full of beautiful people that I love and that love me.

I know it's been six years and we have no kids to show for it, but one day I want a big family. I know I have a Heavenly Father who has blessed me and Ivan with the opportunity of having children, and with his help, we can raise them in a home full of love. There is so much hatred and harm and yelling and selfishness and sadness in the world, and I don't think children should grow up in an environment like that, but so many of them do.  I have so many insecurities about being a mom, so many fears, and so many lacks and worries- but after all this, I know I can still LOVE. And that is what we are all meant to do- is to love, right?

I hope one day my kids can read this and have hope that they can do anything! 

We are all meant to do amazing things! 

Amazing things will happen through the power of LOVE!