Hooray, our journey is (sort of) beginning. We are (living) in Las Vegas for 3 weeks.
And it has already proven to be a super boring place for a non-drinking, car-less, short white-girl who is trying to get "early to bed, early to rise [so I can be] healthy, wealthy and [memorize my lines]"
Okay, okay it has been 3 days (2 1/2) and I've been jet-lagged.
SO, here is what all my facebook friends see:
I must have "forgotten" to post the picture of me tonight: sitting on the couch in my extended stay, trying to eat a Trader Joe's Greek salad while crying and blotting my undereyes with tissue so my mascara won't smear.
WHEN I REALIZED... Duh, I am a little frightened and intimidated right now! ME? Frightened and Intimidated? Of course not, I didn't even spell intimidated right just now, how could it happen to me?
Well, surprise, I AM! I am surrounded by all new people and none of my friends have done this before and could talk me through it. I am in a city that, to me, is super scary ok? (Not sure why I was so okay with new york city past midnight but tonight i was terrified to go meet my new castmates at the Bellagio at 7:30pm by myself because Ivan is at the gym. So I have to wait till 9pm,) but the idea of being out in Las Vegas at dark still frightens me. Mainly because I don't have an unlimited Metro card and can run down into a subway tunnel or a duane reade if i get scared.
I am sighing in relief just by the therapy of writing this. I have nevereverneverever been good at transitions. Rehearsals have been so delightful. I come home tired like I am in school again and my brain hurts trying to remember everything. My last entry was about how lucky I am and I have to remind myself to not be scared or nervous and remember why I am lucky.
The last two nights I woke up at 5am and walked through this little hotel room searching for some comfort. I want to feel like I am home. I want to feel like I have a million friends. I want to feel safe and indestructible, like I can do anything!
This is what helped me through. A Blessing is what helped me feel comfort.
230 calories later ~xoxoMelissaaaa
And it has already proven to be a super boring place for a non-drinking, car-less, short white-girl who is trying to get "early to bed, early to rise [so I can be] healthy, wealthy and [memorize my lines]"
Okay, okay it has been 3 days (2 1/2) and I've been jet-lagged.
SO, here is what all my facebook friends see:
i LOVE warm weather! And I love rehearsing 10-4 and having the rest of my day to have FUN here!!! — in Las Vegas, NV.
I must have "forgotten" to post the picture of me tonight: sitting on the couch in my extended stay, trying to eat a Trader Joe's Greek salad while crying and blotting my undereyes with tissue so my mascara won't smear.
WHEN I REALIZED... Duh, I am a little frightened and intimidated right now! ME? Frightened and Intimidated? Of course not, I didn't even spell intimidated right just now, how could it happen to me?
Well, surprise, I AM! I am surrounded by all new people and none of my friends have done this before and could talk me through it. I am in a city that, to me, is super scary ok? (Not sure why I was so okay with new york city past midnight but tonight i was terrified to go meet my new castmates at the Bellagio at 7:30pm by myself because Ivan is at the gym. So I have to wait till 9pm,) but the idea of being out in Las Vegas at dark still frightens me. Mainly because I don't have an unlimited Metro card and can run down into a subway tunnel or a duane reade if i get scared.
I am sighing in relief just by the therapy of writing this. I have nevereverneverever been good at transitions. Rehearsals have been so delightful. I come home tired like I am in school again and my brain hurts trying to remember everything. My last entry was about how lucky I am and I have to remind myself to not be scared or nervous and remember why I am lucky.
The last two nights I woke up at 5am and walked through this little hotel room searching for some comfort. I want to feel like I am home. I want to feel like I have a million friends. I want to feel safe and indestructible, like I can do anything!
This is what helped me through. A Blessing is what helped me feel comfort.
230 calories later ~xoxoMelissaaaa
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